Don't break my palpitating heart!

I weigh 115.4 today. You heard right.
A hundred and fucking fifteen point four.
The only thing I can do at a time like this is quote White Chicks...
"SOMEBODY THROUGH SHAMU BACK INTO THE OCEAN!!! WOOO!!"

Lmao. Okay that made me a bit happier. But god dammit I seriously feel like a whale. The last time I weighed this much was 2 years ago.

The good news is I have started college (my 3rd day tomorrow) and no one is around me all day. AKA I can get away with not eating! Let's see how my palpitating heart likes that!!

I need serious help. I mean I've looked it up on the Internet but it's all the "healthy" ways and stuff which I don't neccesarily care about obviously. I just need a sure way to make my god awful thighs skinnier!!!!! Do you guys know any tricks? Please fill me in. Obviously I need to just not eat and then ill be fine :p but what are some other things? Please let me know guys.

Bigger than 3? Just kill me.

If I ever have to buy anything bigger than a size 3, I will fucking hang myself with those jeans right then and there!!!

I seriously think I might be getting there. I need to start working harder. My life depends on it.

I remember just a few short months ago when ALL of my size 0s still fit. Not all of them do anymore :/

I will get back to where I was (104lbs) and LOWER this time!!!!!

Restart

I've been gone, a long long time. That isn't to say I haven't still been reading. My iPod prevents me from posting comments on you guys for some reason.

I have been officially diagnosed with depression and anxiety. The only good to come of this is I hear these antidepressants my friend uses makes him less hungry. Which we all know is a good thing.

I've been riding my bike so at least I am getting SOME excersize.

I am ignoring all of my modeling opportunities because I feel too insecure with myself now. One guy I am ignoring is actually pretty big on an unnamed website. I just can't do it right now though.

School is starting and I am still not as skinny as I wanted to be.

I am restarting this ana train starting today. Wish me luck. Miss you guys and I'll comment as soon as this iPod let's me...

:)